I am on an ultimate quest to answer the question, “what am I going to be doing here?” This is funny, because part of me feels like this is an existential nightmare sort of question. One of those ones that would normally keep me up at night or make my days seem long and listless, lost in contemplation. I think it’s funny, because, despite my tendency to psychologically obsess, this question hasn’t really bothered me at all. I call that progress.
We moved to Amsterdam about 20 months ago. I thought I knew who I was and what I was doing here, but I was wrong on all counts. Now, months later, I have been searching…. like networking my butt off, meeting with all kinds of fabulous people, plotting my next course of action.
The plotting element of previous statement is what makes the existential question seem like an every day pondering, like asking “what shoes do I wear today?” All it takes is a little inspection: What pants am I wearing? Who am I meeting? Am I walking or riding the bike? And then bingo – it’s the gray suede lace-up pumps. So this “what am I going to do here?” question has involved a similar inspection: What am I good at? What do I want people to pay me for? How do I get the support I need to figure it out?
Okay, so totally existential, surely, but somehow, it feels like I am figuring it out step by step, with a dedication that I haven’t felt in a long time. This is my life, and by damn, I am going to find the best fit ever here and enjoy it and people are going to pay me to do it.
Sure, been doing lots of exploration, with tons of people… it’s been a very busy time. And now, it’s time to throw in the arts. As an artist – just one facet of my nature - it’s a crying shame I haven’t done this before now, but Friday, I am going on a Modern Art Gallery tour – yep. Nine modern art galleries in one, hopefully, not too cold Friday afternoon. Thank god I am not going to do it alone… I managed to recruit Francisco, a total stranger, new to Amsterdam, to be my co-conspirator as we check out these galleries for their offerings and general cool-ness. Thank goodness for him!
Of course I put them all on a Google Map cause it’s a very organized thing to do (yes, another one of my facets)- you can check it out here.
Alright, the W139 location might be our only outlier, but my hope is that we’ll make them all…. And hopefully stir around an awesome amount of information in my head…. causing it to swirl like a mad woman…. or at least a woman on a non-existential, quite normal quest.
Oh let’s see what happens!